I’ve been so unmotivated to do anything since “my incident“. I feel like I can’t exercise, because well, I really can’t since the doctor said to lay off until we figure out what happened. And I worked really hard one weekend to do a ton of homework so that I would have fewer assignments due during my preceptorship, so now I haven’t done work in so long that I don’t even know how to begin.
I’m sitting here, with all of my stuff out and I just can’t bring myself to start working on this case study. It’s so much easier for me to get stuff done if I’m always busy, versus if I have four days to do one thing, I’ll wait until the last possible second to start working on it. I have a quiz and a case study due tomorrow and I really don’t care, haha. This is senioritis at its finest, folks. And I just hope it doesn’t derail me.
Since I’m not exercising, I haven’t done much except watch copious amounts of tv shows on Netflix and Amazon Instant. It’s really kind of tragic. I’ve cooked a little, but not much, and really I just lay on the couch all day. I think not only do I have senioritis but also I’m just plain ole burned out. This program is intense and even though I’m almost done (last final December 10th), I really can’t bring myself to put too much effort in. I guess that’s what I get for doing an accelerated baccalaureate nursing program.
In retrospect, I wouldn’t change my decision. Through all the bumps I don’t think another program would have been as helpful, and I surely would never undo the friendships that I’ve forged with the people in my cohort. We’re a bunch of weirdoes, and it’s awesome.
Speaking of weirdoes, my first clinical day with my preceptor went awesome. I’ve never been on a unit like this one and it’s amazing. It makes me question where I want to work when I’m finished. I desperately wanted to work on a pediatric unit, but since I didn’t get a pediatric preceptorship I am at a disadvantage when it comes to applying for jobs. I was super disappointed when I got my assignment, but I know that everything happens for a reason and it is all going to work out one way or another. The good thing about nursing is that I can always switch to another specialty, so I’ll figure it out at some point.
Still have more testing to do before we reach a verdict on what happened to me, had an MRI today and they had to stick me 4 times before they got the contrast in. Great. Thanks, for nothing.
So those are going to look super awesome in a few hours as they continue to bleed. Hooray. I’m a hard stick, with tiny, rolly veins, and they are my worst nightmare. Instances like this are why I work so hard to make sure I only have to stick people one time. So far, I’ve done that 100% of the time, but now I’m sure i just jinxed myself. I’m going to stop talking before I do it again…